Its been long since i wrote a long long long blog post. So since i’m free now. I shall. Hmmm, 1 word to summarize how i’m feeling recently, SCREWED UP. I wanna do Good, but i keep falling and do Bad. I have a plan. I wanna maybe, for a start. Start to be a ”good student/son” and study hard and be a good son that doesn’t go out late all night. Than i can start thinking to walk like a Christian. Its super hard for me, as many people say i’m very easily influenced. I tend to look for people to find me. I tend to be loud and fun-loving but im slowly dying on the inside! CRAP! this is not EMO! i’m just voicing out, to see where i stand. and where i can continue and clear up the mess. I went home with Marc last night. I remembered something i told him, and i really really really wanna work towards it.

I told Marc, i wanna get my Life back. I wanna live for a cause. Not living aimlessly, and looking for the stupid thrills in the life to abstain from the loneliness within. Anyways, my current favourite song is, Unashamed - Starfield. The starting lines are already so meaningful. Roars. Pray for me.